45. Beyond my words

~ Written by Danielle N. Bilski ~

On Wednesday my mum and I went to the cinemas to see ‘Eat, Prey, Love’ based on the novel by Elizabeth Gilbert. We had both read the novel a few years ago and thoroughly enjoyed it, so when we found out that it was being made into a movie starring the one and only Julia Roberts we vowed to go and see it together.

Julia Roberts was fantastic as Liz, the scenes set in Italy, India and Bali were exquisite and Ketut the Medicine Man was gorgeous! I was thoroughly inspired not only by the movie but by the whole journey that Elizabeth Gilbert has been on, from the enlightenment and self-reflection, writing and publishing a novel and now having one of the world’s biggest actresses bring her story to life on-screen for the world to see.

I just Googled Elizabeth Gilbert and came across a page on her own website which I found to be a great insight into her writing journey. This is the link to the entire article http://www.elizabethgilbert.com/writing.htm in which she says, “I believe that – if you are serious about a life of writing, or indeed about any creative form of expression – that you should take on this work like a holy calling. I became a writer the way other people become monks or nuns. I made a vow to writing, very young. I became Bride-of-Writing. I was writing’s most devotional handmaiden. I built my entire life around writing. I didn’t know how else to do this. I didn’t know anyone who had ever become a writer. I had no, as they say, connections. I had no clues. I just began.” (Elizabeth Gilbert, http://www.elizabethgilbert.com/writing.htm, accessed 30th October 2010)

I find this most intriguing because as mum and I were leaving the cinemas on Wednesday, I said something to her like “I want ‘My Time with You’ to be made into a movie one day.” She agreed that it would be amazing and she said she couldn’t see why it couldn’t happen, if the right connections were made.

The next words that came out of my mouth was “writing is my life.” Mum said “writing is not who you are, it’s what you do” which was a similar line to one we had just heard in ‘Eat, Prey, Love’. “Writing is who I am,” I replied, saying “it is what makes me who I am.”

Having said that, sometimes words aren’t enough to express the most profound feelings and experiences.

I knew what mum meant; that I am more than my writing. However I truly believe that the person I am and aspire to be comes out most clearly through the words that I write. Like a musical instrument, I am the avenue through which the song (my writing) is produced and without it, what would I be. Whether you agree or not, I believe I would be less of myself without the ability to express what I feel, know and see and instead of making the most of every experience and being grateful for the lessons I have learned, I would be constantly searching for fulfillment and meaning which I find eternally in my words and the actual physical action of creative writing.

I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am a grand daughter. I am a niece and a cousin. I am a girlfriend. I am a co-worker. I am a friend. I am Danielle N. Bilski and I am a writer. No matter what else I choose to with my time, I am all of these things beyond my words, but without my words I wouldn’t be much more than what I am to someone else in my life. As a writer, I am something more to myself than I have ever been and the fact that I can share this time with you and those other people in my life is heartwarming.

I write for me. I am humbled when someone reads what I have written.

I see myself how I want to be. I can only hope that through my writing, you can see me too.

Beyond my words there is meaning, love, passion and hope. May you find all of these things in your own life and when you do, inspire others to do the same. The answers are all there inside of you; you just have to let yourself see them.

More than words, but less without them,

My Time with You ©2010 Danielle N. Bilski

44. How much is the top player worth (poem)

How much is the top player worth
Written by Danielle N. Bilski

He laughs because something is funny
She cries because she is sad
They yell because they are angry
She whispers because she is shy
Do you ever wonder how they really feel inside?

The outside shows us
Only what they want us to see
Once you peel back a few layers
You will quickly realise
Not everything is as it may have seemed

He smiles because he is happy
She tells you everything is great
They make you think their word is gospel
She asks a question she doesn’t know the answer to
Watch out, she may be testing you

The outside shows us
Only what they want us to see
Once you peel back a few layers
You will quickly realise
Not everything is as it may have seemed

How much is the top player or layer worth
We may only ever see
What is on the outside
Never revealing what is hidden
Disguised, hoping no one finds what is underneath

He laughs because if he doesn’t he might just begin to cry
She cries not because she is sad, but expressing the joy she feels for life
They yell to make sure they are heard although they may actually sound angry
She whispers because she doesn’t want to disturb the silence but she definitely isn’t shy
Do you ever wonder whether that is how they really feel inside?

How much money is the top player paid?
How much truth is the top layer made of?

My Time with You ©2010 Danielle N. Bilski

43. My time with ‘My time…’

~Written by Danielle N. Bilski ~

Remember: There is always more than one side to every story.

What is ‘My Time with You’?

Over the past year, My Time with you has become many things:

1. mytimewithyou.com.au – My Time with You is the time that you and I are spending together here on MTWYcomau; through shared words and profound moments those words create;

2. Fiction manuscript – My Time with You is a fictional story that captures the moments in someone’s life that makes them who they are and the people, places, experiences and memories that are a testament to their existence; now and when they are no longer here in the form of a fiction manuscript and hopefully one day a published novel;

3. A life story – My Time with You is our narrator’s time with the reader as the narrator expresses their time as they live it and shares it with the reader who lives it along with them, through their words the fiction manuscript captures;

4. A fictional project – My Time with You is a project that our narrator creates within the story they tell throughout the fiction manuscript that becomes their legacy and acknowledgement of others, their time and the stories they have to tell;

5. A writing business – My Time with You is a real project that has been specially established to help others tell their unique stories and capture the moments in their time for others to appreciate and cherish beyond the limits of life;

6. Uniting us as individuals – My Time with You is meaningful to every single one of us in a different way;

and ultimately

7. Your time with yourself – My Time with You is the time innate in all of us, our existence and manifested as our inescapable time within ourselves.

The more time that I have spent with this project, the more dimensions of it that I discover and every moment is an exciting new adventure with possibilities that make my heart smile like I have just uncovered a priceless philosophical artifact.

My Time with You is first and foremost a) the acknowledgement and appreciation of time as elusive and infinite as it is and the subjective nature that exists within our human understanding; b) the varying use of the time that we share; directly through shared communication and location, as well as indirectly such as the same particular moment in one part of the world and in another like a historical event or even moments captured on film, photograph and/or audio viewed at another time; and c) the realisation that time for any of us is limited and could end anytime.

Real time is linear, meaning that is constantly going forward. We can’t touch it or taste it, smell it or hear it nor can we see it. Yet time is at the very core of any existence and it is vital to the life of everything we touch, taste, smell, hear and see.

Nothing is indestructible and everything is beautiful in its own way.

My Time with You is about capturing the beauty in the moments that are lived and shared as well as valuing every moment that we are given, together.

These are our stories; our moments.

Then, now and forever,

My Time with You ©2010 Danielle N. Bilski